Di sebalik Teman Pengganti

Hi world,

I guess it's >6 months I've no entry. Early, kununnya nak resign from blogging ni. Because I know myself better than other know me.. Always like this, "hangat2 tahi ayam".. Hihihi. Surprisingly tonight my heart instructs jari jemariku to post this entry.

Al-kisahnya bermula......

This morning, on my way to office. Tangan ni gatal la pergi search the lyric of Malique's latest song. Dah la tak tahu siapa nyanyi tapi cam suara Malique part verse rapping tu. Mula2 teka Fiq yg nyanyi. But I can't find any results from Google. When I searched by the wording of the song. Then terjumpa la.. Rupa2nya, Black feat Malique. Padahal, a day before tu memang dah argue with my fiancee either Fiq or Black. Both of us degil, die2 nak juga search Fiq.

Once the song is downloaded, then start la sesi karaoke dalam traffic jammed.

First time, hayati lirik ni. Terus tersentap. Susunan bait2 kata sungguh puitis. But it still can be understand by the people like me yang hati keras macam batu and memang buta sastera.

I tried understand the lyric word by word. Till the last verse ada mention that...

 "Bilik dah ku kemas, katil dah ku rapi
Cincin, kunci, dompet dalam laci
Ada sikit wang, itu saja baki
Moga-moga cukup untuk majlis itu nanti"

Uiks.. My heart said, "Apesal pelik benor lirik Malique ni??" Then, mulut terus stop nyanyi. Baca balik bait2 kata sambungan and try to relate with the earlier verse. Suddenly, without my concious air mata jatu kat tangan seciput. Cepat2 control takut kena ejek dengan Mr driver.

Sampai office pe lagi, lupa sekejap tanggungjawab as an employee. Terus transfer the song from phone to PC. After that pe lagi, start laaa dok repeat lagu tu sambil layan perasaan.

Lagu ni quite sedih maksudnya, sebab ia macam luahan hati terakhir seorang lelaki yang sangat kecewa dengan pasangannya. But at the same time, he already know that himself need to leave his love to meet Allah.

Otak pun mula la fikir ngarut2.. "Malique sakit ke??" Ye laaa.. Mula2 keluar "aku maafkan kamu".. Kemudian "teman pengganti" yang sarat dengan makna yang menyentuh perasaanku.

Aku doakan semoga Malique sentiasa sihat selalu and bahagia disamping isteri and anak tersayang.